To Ride Or Not to Ride
That is the question
I used to write about this question occasionally, but usually the subject concerned the weather. Was it going to be smart to ride in today's weather. Sometimes I'd be mad because I missed a day of riding because I thought the weather would be bad, but turned out not to be so, or vice versa.
| At Burnett's Mound in Topeka Kansas |
But today I'm actually contemplating something different
To Ride or Not to Ride
Period
Ever
In other words, I'm beginning to question whether it is smart for me to ride at all given my health condition.
Like Hamlet, Here's the Rub,
You may not be aware, You may not care, but there are some subtle and sometimes wicked after-effects that result from a cardiac arrest.You might think that it's all about the heart, but the brain can be also affected by a cardiac arrest. A lack of fresh oxygenated blood to the brain during the arrest can cause a lot of symptoms such as memory loss and coordination problems including the ability to perform very basic functions. Some of these symptoms are severe, some minor.
So, what's the problem......
I believe I am continuing to experience some symptoms of brain anoxia (lack of oxygen) that occurred during my cardiac arrest. In my case, it's not extremely serious. I function just fine, most of the time. But 3 1/2 years later, I still have some minor symptoms, and they do not appear to be going away. I believe some of these symptoms affect my ability to effectively operate a 2 wheeled motorized vehicle. I say "might" because most of the time I think I am just as competent as before. But other times I know that I am not as alert, mentally, as I should be. I am afraid that I might not be able to recognize and react as quickly as I should to certain situations that could be encountered on the road.
And I'm the kind of person that feels that if I'm going to do something, anything, then I'm going to do it right, and safely, and competently. Otherwise I'm not sure it is worth doing at all.
| A beautiful day near Eskridge Kansas |
And it's not easy.
It's a bit difficult to think about it.
I hadn't ridden in about 6 weeks. But 2 days ago I started Max, expecting him to balk a bit because it had been a few weeks since I had even started him. Of course, he started right up on the first touch of the starter. What a good friend he is. And I've ridden the last couple of days to work with no incidents, even got a couple of nice waves from other riders yesterday. Weather has been spectacular. Upper 40's in the morning, maybe a bit cool, but about 70 for the ride home.
It's nice to be riding again.
But in the back of my mind I'm beginning to wonder......
I know one thing.... A long day ride, hours long, is probably out of the question. I don't have the stamina, mentally, to do it anymore. So short trips it will have to be. My romantic dreams of long distance motorcycle touring are probably gone.
I'm not selling Max, at least not yet. It will still be fun to take some fun rides here and there. And when I don't think I can safely accomplish that, well another decision might have to be made. I'm not there yet.
| In the Flint Hills of Kansas about 60 miles northeast of Wichita |
Ride On and Carpe Diem,my good friends,
And if by chance someday that I decide to cease my riding on,,,,,
I guarantee that I will continue Carpe Dieming!















The moment I realized I could get this book in e-reader form it was only a matter of time before I would acquire it and read it. I had been reading some mysteries lately and when I discovered this book I knew I wanted to read it.
And report on it.
For I know very well who Neil Peart is. I didn't know he was also an author.
My knowledge of the author goes back to the 1970's.
A time when I used to play a little electric guitar.
We used to put a record on the turntable, plug in our guitars and play along to the albums. We would dream of playing on the big stage. Most of all we would just have a lot of fun. Sometimes we would nail the music sequences. Sometimes we could hit the 'licks', other times not so much.
One of the bands we liked to play along with was the Canadian Rock Band "Rush". I remember a couple of their early albums very well. After more than 30 years they are still Rockin', even though there was a couple of years where they took a break.
The author of this book, Neil Peart, is the drummer for "Rush".
I didn't know until just recently, that the author had experienced some personal tragedies in his life. The kind of tragedies you wouldn't want to wish upon anyone.
First, his 19 year old daughter, his only child, was killed in an automobile accident. Then, not too long later, the love of his life and mother of his daughter died. She officially died of cancer, but as the author puts it, she really died of a broken heart.
Damn!
Now, I can't begin to even try and understand what I would do in a similar situation. I just hope that nothing like it ever happens to me.
But the author, also an avid motorcyclist, decided he would try and deal with his grief by going for a ride.
The author thought that maybe riding would help him get his mind off the pain and grief he was experiencing. In an almost Pirsig like expression he talks about how riding his motorcycle causes total concentration and attention to the road in front of him. That would help keep his mind occupied and even lull him into a tranquility caused by the the constant motion and vibration of the motorcycle as the world passed by him.
We're talking a lot of miles, hopefully a lot of healing and a lot of months all over the north american continent.


I wasn't able to ride to work at all last week, until Saturday. We had about 4" of snow early Monday that didn't melt off very fast. On Saturday though, most of the snow had cleared. It was in the 20's on the way to work, but about 50 degrees for the ride home. Nice!!!
My sister in law lives near Washigton DC. They got about 30" of snow in the first round, and she sent me a couple of pics by email. Then that 4" snow we had was the precurser to another 10" for her and her second email to me began with "WTF"! I don't think she can even open up her front door.
Maybe I should not complain about the snows we have had. What gripes me though is that we have had 4 small snows this year and each one has taken a long time to melt. I was able to ride a lot more last winter than this year.
Oh Well!



I have a brother that lives in Finland. We sometimes use Facebook to communicate with each other. He says that Finnish people generally like America, but not real impressed with what we did in Iraq.
It is a lot to consider over Sunday morning coffee.
Ahhh, maybe a little too heavy for this day.
Jayna had a birthday this week, hence the flowers.
We are planning soup, salad and breadsticks at Olive Garden for lunch with all of the family. We get together almost every Sunday for a meal together. We will probably take in the Super Bowl later today too.
I didn't get in much riding this week, but the week before I was able to ride every day to work. With the predicted snow today, it may be a few days again before I will be riding to work.
Sometimes I think my life partially revolves around my decisions to ride or not to ride to work.
Occasionally, thoughts about the world, politics, health care, philosophy, tax laws, religion and other sundry matters cloud my mind. I admit to not being able to provide all the solutions to the problems of the world. Just maybe some opinions.
The decisions to ride or not to ride are a little simpler.
Tech notes. All pictures today from new blackberry (3.2 mp camera). First post from home with the new laptop. Somewhere in the neighborhood is a free wifi link. I am not complaining. I just hate to pay for stuff that I can get for free.
Native Americans have a very interesting, unique, and in my opinion, a very wonderful sense of spirituality. They have a keen intuition about our planet and all of its inhabitants.
Life, in all its forms, is very sacred to them.
The Storyteller started off by talking about the animal kingdom. Of course all the animals had the ability to talk with each other.
The animals were having a meeting and discussing, of all things, water rights. Some of the animals were a bit perturbed because the beavers had put up a dam on the river and blocked some water flow.
They solved the problem by cutting some holes in the ice at regular intervals. The turtle could pop his head up through these holes and let the others know where he was. The Grizzly would just run along the bank of the river.
To make the story short, the Grizzly obviously had a huge advantage, but was lazy and overconfident. He would stop occasionally to scratch his back against a tree. Or goof off when he felt like it. The turtle made slow but smooth progress down the river. You could occasionally see the turtle's head popping up in the holes.
The turtle eventually got to be ahead of the Grizzly and eventually the turtle won the race.
There was much surprise that the turtle had won, but much rejoicing also. The turtle was carried off on the shoulders of some of the other animals and a little party ensued. Eventually the celebration died down and the turtle made his way home and was greeted by the rest of his family.
The family members gave each other high fives and hugs and laughed out loud, for they all knew one thing. They had all been in the river that morning, each of them assigned to a particular hole in the ice, and each had poked his head out of the hole at an appointed time.
The Grizzly never stood a chance of winning the race.
Now there are many potential morals to the story such as outsmarting your opponent, perseverence, etc, but the Storyteller's point was how important it was for families to stick together and support each other.
At the holiday time of year as families get together for celebrations, this is a fun story to recall no matter what tradition or background your family comes from.
And that diversity of backgrounds was part of his point.
The early Thanksgiving celebration was not so much a celebration of a harvest, as much as it was maybe a celebration of diversity: the ability of two so different peoples to be able to get together and celebrate something very meaningful to both of them.
He ended his discussion with a reminder that families are important to everybody. He emphasized that we are all human beings regardless of our religion, skin color or other potentially divisive way of identification. There is common ground between us all.
I wish everybody a happy and joyous holiday season regardless of how you choose to celebrate it.
